Don't think I want to leave my room any time soon..

This is the second time I've stopped up the pipes in this house. It's official--this house and its pipes SUCK ASS!

I feel terrible, causing this hassle for my mum.
I'm disgusting, and no longer deserve food: it'll only end up in the drains [to be RE-clogged]..

And I can't tell her I just did it--the last time I did, she just said 'Well, can you stop?...Go watch TV, I think you being on the computer all day is causing this.'

So I can't say anything anymore. I just am not allowed to eat like others do anymore.
..so much for 'recovery.'

I don't have all that much to say..

I don't feel the least bit optimistic I'll ever start eating properly.

8-13.5: COE
13.5-16: Non-purging bulimia
16-now [19]: purging bulimia (and recently, restriction)

There's no norm to which I can return..maybe I can practice CRON next time I wish to recover? Their goal is to get as much nutritional density in as few calories as possible...this is, of course, assuming I'll ever stop purging.

Well, happy December. Hope it's a good one, guys.